All I know is that it is one of those nights that my mind is so full that I can't sleep. I cant seem to get my mind to stop whirling. There is so much I am thinking about I can't pin point just one thing to think about it is killing me.  I have been meaning to write some poems that I can find a way to create into songs. I guess I am starting tonight. maybe then I will be able to sleep..

Wish me luck!!

life and all its hills..

Yeah I decided to get out of Phoenix for the weekend. The whole week I have felt pretty alone. My roommates seem to be mad at me and they are all ignoring me. Also, I don't know I feel like all the people I thought were friends won't talk to me either. It's not like I did something wrong, if anything what I did was finally right.

I don't know I just needed to get away and come to Prescott.

So I surprised my mom and it was not the welcome I expected.

Oh well I know I always have God. I get to go to One80 this weekend and church so I am happy with that. :)

hmmmm the ponders continue

So yeah today I added one and one together; for being a math nerd I never got two before now.

1. I LOVE righting poems haven't done it in a while but they are so much fun and let me be as creative as I want to be. They have no rules (unless I want them too) and I can say what I want straight from well my heart soul and mind.

1. I LOVE singing and all things music. It is way that lets me be me. I express myself and my moderately good voice doesn't matter. The singing is the way that I feel free.

2. UH DUH!!! combine them. Poems are like lyrics. I could easily write my own songs! hmmm yeah it just hit me! ok ok when I say easily I mean the lyric part the music and combining it all will take a LOT of time, practice, patience and prayer. But I can use it as a tool to not only let myself get closer to God but also as a tool to bring others to Him as well.

Don't you just love epiphany's :)

now all I need to do is get a guitar haha.. and get the piano tuned.. and learn my bass..learn it all actually..
(yeah I am going to be pretty busy for a while! )

oh man .....

it is REALLY hard!!!.. I feel as though I have one thing that I have to do.. but then the other thing I could do I try convincing myself I could last when in all reality I am pretty sure that is a lie.

so in the end

when I look back I don't want anything to be worth giving up my salvation.

eternity or... (the issue that is causing decisions to be hard)??

help me God...

the road i chose

I gave all my heart and life to the heavenly father! I was filled with the Holy Ghost and was baptized :) .. I am done falling!! It is all uphill from here :) ..

"I took the road less traveled by, and that will make all the difference"