Corner 1

"If you aren't enough without it, believe me, you'll never be enough with it" -Cool Runnings

What is that consumes our day to day lives that we feel we can't live without it? Is it a material thing? Or maybe its something connected to you in an emotional way..In any case, does it define who you are?

Another question to mull over is, how does God feel about your answer?

I have been struggling with an inward battle that I feel a lot of people can relate with me. My answer to the first question was a man, a realationship. Even after I got saved, I still felt incomplete. Now the bible says in

Genesis 2: 18-24 "And the Lord God said, "It is not good that man should be alone; I will make him a helper comparable to him." Out of the ground the Lord formed every beast of the field and every bird of the air, and brought them to Adam to see what he would call them. And whatever Adam called each living creature, that was its name. So Adam gave names to all cattle, to the birds of the air, and to every beast of the feild. But for Adam there was not found a helper comparable to him. And the Lord caused a deep sleep to fall on Adam, and he slept; and He took one of his ribs, and closed up the flesh in its place. Then the rib which the Lord God had taken from man He made into woman, and He brought her to the man. And Adam said "This is now bone of my bones and flesh of my flesh; She shall be called Woman, because she was taken out of Man" Therefore a man shall leave his father and mother and be joined to his wife, and they shall become one flesh."

We were not created or meant to be alone. It is completely natural to want a relationship. When we think we are ready though, that is when we should see that we are not at all. God also wants to prepare us for it too. He know the right time and place.

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8 "To everything there is a season, a time for every purpose under heaven: A time to be born and time to die; a time to plant and a time to pluck what is planted; a time to kill and a time to heal; a time to break down and a time to build up; a time to weep and a time to laugh; a time to mourn and a time to dance; a time to cast away stones and a time to gather stones; a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing; a time to gain and a time to lose; a time to keep and a time to throw away; a time to tear and a time to sow; a time to keep silence and a time to speak; a time to love and a time to hate; a time of war and a time of peace."

 God knows what he is doing and each season of life is a preparation for the next. So by opening my book and reading the quote from cool running I realized something about myself. I fell that I am not enough without a man but with one I will never be enough. This is because my focus isn't on God. I am not saying that I am not saved. What I am saying is that my heart has to belong to Him before it can be shared with anyone else. He has to be my best friend before a man can be. Self realization can be a tough thing. Poking and prodding at the hidden corners of ourselves is a painful process but through His grace and mercy we get through it. He shows us not to condemn us or make us feel inadequate. He shows us so that we aren't left in the darkness. So that He can reside in every part of us, so that our surrender is COMPLETE. By working through the poking and prodding we are able to grow. To grow closer to Him, in our faith, and into a more mature christian. They say that some newly saved is a like a child and needs help to be guided. Allowing the corners to be lit is a way for us to become 'adult' christians.

So my corner for today has been the addiction to a relationship. I want a love story that God writes. I have to give Him the pen. If I want to be swept off my feet one day I have to give up the broom. I know He has a plan for my life. This lesson teaches me not only that I have a dark corner but also in some other areas I lack. Faith. Trust. Patience. All those He is trying to teach me as well.

So for you ask yourself. What do you live for everyday that you may place above God? Is there a corner of you heart that you are trying not to let go of? How much more could God move in your life if you would only let Him into ALL of it?

This is not an easy lesson. In the end greater is the reward.