The inspiration from a friend and song...

How do you get inspiration? what is it that inspires you?

Sometimes it takes reading something from someone random to get truly inspired. As of late I have been far too busy feeling sorry for myself than focusing on what God has done for me and when He still has planned. Thinking about how hard life has been the last year and confusing and unstable and so much more. In the words of this person though, there is not one worst day being saved that was worse than the best day as a sinner. I have come so far from where I was three years ago. I was suicidal and thought that there was no one in the world who would ever want me, a used piece of garbage that needed to be gotten rid of. Thank the Lord above that there is Divine Intervention. That there was one person who dragged me to a place I did NOT want to be. The place where God came down and in my sobbing tears I gave my life to Him asking for His forgiveness. The truth is that He saved me from myself and my self destruction. His grace and mercy is endless and through it I am still here today. The past is not to be forgotten it is something to remember but to learn from and not repeat. Another thing is that life is hard and humans aren't perfect. When we stumble He helps us back up. We have to get back up and keep moving forward! His forgiveness is endless. Now that is not saying you fall on purpose because you know he will help. That is not it at all. Its about not letting the guilt of stumbling bring you down further. He helped you up its time to keep going. That is something that I have constantly struggled with is that I have guilt and shame. But He took my shame and guilt when He died on that cross. He washed away all my sins, white as snow. I am listening to a song and God is speaking to me so much through it. 

"Love Came Down by Kari Jobe"

If my heart is overwhelmed
And I cannot hear Your voice
I hold on to what is true
Though I cannot see

If the storms of life they come
And the road ahead gets steep
I will lift these hands in faith
I will believe

I'll remind myself
Of all that You've done
And the life I have
Because of Your son

Love came down and rescued me
Love came down and set me free
I am Yours
Lord I'm forever Yours
Mountains high or valley low
I sing out and remind my soul
I am Yours
I am forever Yours

When my heart is filled with hope
Every promise comes my way
When I feel Your hands of grace
Rest upon me

Staying desperate for You, God
Staying humble at Your feet
I will lift these hands in praise
I will believe

I'll remind myself
Of all that You've done
And the life I have
Because of Your son

Love came down and rescued me
Love came down and set me free
I am Yours
I am forever Yours
Mountains high or valley low
I sing out and remind my soul
I am Yours
I am forever Yours

Singing this out loud helps me remember why I am here today. Through song is how I am inspired and through some how God speaks to me. Music is a part of ever fiber of my being. I thank God that He has put that in me. I just wish I knew more so I could use it for His glory. It is definitely a work in progress. master the piano first!

If you are reading this know that God can and will save you from the place you are at. He loves you as He loves me. Also take that I am clearly insane and that I love every second of it. God has done some pretty amazing stuff in my life and He wants to do it in yours too! I pray that this can speak to someone even if i use this blog to help myself think I hope that it can help others too. It my way to sort through the massive amount of thoughts in my head. Have a great and wonderful day!!